I learned if I wanted to get to know God, I needed to spend time with Him on a daily basis.
I began having a quiet time with Him each day and reading “The Purpose Driven Life”.
Then one day something amazing happened. I was halfway through the book when I had a flash of light with insight. A moment of epiphany. I realized that I finally found what I had been looking for.
Here was the most important piece of the puzzle – that I am loved unconditionally by the Creator of this world! I could tell Him all my pain, my faults and my confusion and He wouldn’t judge me. I am forgiven through Christ Jesus – the one who God has sent.
I said, “It is done!!!” And at that very moment my younger daughter, (then six years old) who had been playing with her toys, dropped everything and ran to me and leaned over with the same angelic eyes that I had seen in my dream ten years before and said, “Mommy, Mommy! God just came to my heart and said; ‘He is not done with me.’ What does it mean?” I put the book down and asked her to repeat it, because I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. She said, “God said, ‘He is not done with me’. What does it mean Mommy?” I don’t remember how I answered her. She went back to her toys and I was in awe. God was talking to me. “He wasn’t done with me.” He heard me when I said, “It’s done!!!” He spoke to me! As the tears were falling, I got down on my knees and thanked Him, “Oh God, I am so glad that you are not done with me. I need you!”
God said: “I AM!” ( Exodus 3: 14 ) He is a living God. His love is infinite. He see all, He hears all, and He speaks. God is so very present in every breath we take.
When all this happened, my oldest daughter was exactly eleven years old and my second daughter (the one with angelic eyes) delivered God’s message to me. The dream that I had experienced ten years earlier was fulfilled. The message of God was delivered.
I was saved by the hand of grace – Jesus Christ, the anchor of my soul. My journey was just getting started. God was preparing the way all this time. I had to go through the dark places to understand that I am in need of light. I was no longer under the law, but under grace. Jesus came and took my hand and brought me into the light.
The emptiness within me was no longer there. How I could not believe in such a power and authority? It would be foolish of me to turn my back and ignore such a miracle. Once I was blind but now I started seeing things clearly. It was time to learn and gain knowledge, to stand firm and become who I was called to be. I was like a newborn baby who was eager to learn and was craving for pure spiritual food. I was so excited to start this new life.
The real life and new journey start now.
Stay tuned for the dream of “Climbing and Crawling a High Mountain!”