Our Neediness And God’s Holiness!

Our needs and God’s holiness are a perfect fit. He carefully designed us to have longings and feelings of incompleteness. If we don’t recognize and acknowledge these feelings, we will end up filling these needs with lesser gods (possessions, self-image, power, etc.), which will leave us unsatisfied. If we instead reach out to God in our neediness with humble hearts and desire to be blessed by him, we will see the fulfillment of his rich promises. I now rejoice in my neediness as it brings me continuously closer to his holy dwelling place.

Just like everyone else, when I rise up every morning, I have plans for the specific needs of my family and myself. These plans may be small or big, made in spur of the moment or far in advance. Even with all my planning, I must remind myself to be attuned to God’s plan. We all have a propensity to do what our flesh desires to do, without considering the outcome.

When we are determined to get our own way and insist on our agenda, we actually block God out of our consciousness. Rather than single-mindedly following some selfish goal, we must take a quick turn to God and ask Him to shine His light on our mission, so that we can see it clearly from His perspective. All it takes is a quick prayer, a simple conversation with our Creator. Of course, it must be done with an open mind and heart if we are to be receptive to His plan. I confess that sometimes I forget to pray before I move forward with my game plan. Other times I do pray about my idea, but without waiting to hear what God tells me to do. I hurriedly continue on with my original plan, then eventually face an unpleasant result. But the good news is that I’m beginning to recognize this! I’m practicing the act of “asking, waiting and obeying”. As painful as it is to wait (I’m not a very patient person), I’m learning to wait on God’s plan. The result is always beautiful, peaceful, drama-free, and satisfying. If our mission fits into His pattern for us, He will help us to achieve it. He will never let us down. And if our mission doesn’t fit into His plan, He will eventually change our desires to align with His own.

(Matthew 6:33)
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”

God has revealed some of his future plans for me through dreams and visions, some of which were not on my road map.

As my faith became stronger and my relationship with the Lord deepened, the pattern of my dreams began to change. They became more intense and vivid. I began to dream about important events seemingly before they occurred. It was frightening, exciting, weird, and sometimes very disturbing! I didn’t know what to do, except to pray about them. Sometimes I could interpret the meaning, but most of the time I did not know what the dream meant until the after the event happened.

Over the years I have experienced many dreams and visions about the Lord. It has been an amazing journey, being in God’s presence, witnessing His miracles through Christ Jesus and being changed little by little, from the inside out. No one ever said that change is easy. But God says that He is not yet done with me. All my broken pieces are being made new. And this transformation will continue as long as I live.

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6)

This verse gives me so much hope and encourages me to keep trusting God through a deep relationship with Him. Though I may at times feel lonely in the physical world, every time I turn to God, I am filled with His everlasting and unsurpassing love.

God wants us to live from our deepest and truest center in him. He longs for us to have a raw and authentic relationship with him and humbly bring our needs to him. He doesn’t want his children to hide and wrap their true self with good deeds and flowery talk. Let us allow his love to penetrate deep within us, so that we will live a pure and blameless life.

I don’t know what road you are on, but I can tell you this; the road that I’m on highlights all my needs. And no one can fulfill them but God. My weaknesses are evidence of my need for a savior. Are you in need of a savior?

“In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.”( Exodus 15:13 ) Moses and the Israelites were singing this prayer along with other prayers as they wandered in the desert for 40 years.

I personalized and memorized this prayer, and every time I need clarity in my decisions, I go over it in my mind. The more persistent I am in prayer, the sooner the road opens up ahead.

Make this prayer your prayer. God wants to make your path straight and He will do so. You need only approach Him with faith, and without doubt in your heart.

Deep Calls to Deep!

Trust has to be built little by little. It is not something that happens overnight. We have to know someone well enough before we can trust them. To trust someone is to know their character, their likes and dislikes, their voice, and their walk. To know God and live as He commands, we must know His character. One of God’s character traits is pure light. His light indicates our salvation. He speaks to those who believe in Him through his light. His written word gives light and offers us moral guidance. God desires that we approach Him with total trust and believe in Him with the purity of a child. image

The only way we can have intimacy with God is through the Holy Spirit. This intimate encounter is so pure, completely immersing our whole being in His Holy presence. When “deep calls to deep” (Psalm 42:7), there is a beautiful and perfect communication between our souls and the Spirit of God. My spirit was longing for a deep intimacy with God Almighty. Only God could see into my heart and know what I needed to hear.

The story that I’m about to tell you, it wasn’t a dream. I experienced the divine sight of the Lord. “Deep” was calling to the depth of my soul. Through this particular vision, the Lord revealed my struggles concerning my trust and faith in Him and my fear of giving Him the control of my life.


It was the 25th anniversary celebration of the church that we had just started attending. It was a big event, taking place in a huge stadium. At the end of celebration everyone held hands, while the pastor prayed. Half way through the prayer, as I prayed with my eyes closed, I felt a strong wind rushed over my face. It was so strong that I felt it blowing through my eyelashes! With my eyes still closed, I saw a vision of the Lord’s feet. Then I heard four words spoken very softly; faith, trust, and no fear. I felt chills all over my body.

As the pastor finished the prayer and I opened my eyes, I noticed that there wasn’t any wind in the stadium. I asked my husband, “Did you feel that wind?” He said; “What? No!” It was an amazing feeling to have such an encounter with the Lord. I felt like I was standing on holy ground. This vision wasn’t a illusion. When the Lord spoke, there was a perfect oneness between us. I had no doubt what I saw and what I heard was the reality and truth . I was so blessed and humbled! I didn’t realize how we got back to the car, as we walked through the crowd of thousands of people. I felt as I was walking on a cloud nine in different world. As though the place was deserted. I couldn’t hear anything or see anyone. I was in total awe!

A song by Natalie Grant came to my mind;
“At the sound of Your great name every fear has no place. At the sound of Your great name all the weak will find strength. At the sound of Your great name the enemy leaves……..”

On the drive home from stadium I wondered why I had been shown only the Lord’s feet and not his face. I have learned to be persistent in my prayer. Keep on asking the Lord, and He shall answer the one who seeks Him. During my quiet time, I asked the Lord about this. He didn’t answer me the first or second time, but eventually, He gave me an answer. Seeing only His feet meant, “Follow Me. Follow My steps.”
Whenever the Holy Spirit calls to our spirit, there will be a breakthrough into spirits. Such a place is a deep anointing place, pure love, and light.

( John 8:12 )“I am the Light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the Light of life”.


“O Lord, your sweet love keeps calling me. Thank you for not giving up on me.”

~ Parveen M.