I was looking through the window of life for so many years. Locked inside, gazing at the light outside and not knowing how to live in the light. Wondering what it would be like to live in this light. The true light of life. For many years, I didn’t have the courage to open this window. But after many struggles, I finally had the strength to open it.
I reached out to hold on to the light, and to my surprise the light was pleased to hold onto me more tightly than I ever could have imagined. This light wasn’t ordinary or like light that the world offers, but this light was magnificent and divine. This divine light is God. He was revealed to me through my two beautiful children years ago. He has spoken to me in my dreams and visions.
After I offered my heart to Him holding my hands in prayer, I had a glimpse of His glory. My life has been changed since that moment. My prayers began to be more about His will instead of my will.
He taught me through His word who He is and who I am. I’m His beloved child and He loves me – little me! Not because of what I do, But because who He is. He forgives me. He gives me my purpose in life.
And most importantly He is teaching me how to love him first and then love everyone else, just as He loves them. He shows me not to judge anyone but to forgive everyone and make room for everyone’s mistakes, just as He has made room for my mistakes. He teaches me to live in the present, not in the past, because no one can change the past. I need not grasp for or fear the future for He is already holding it. I can only find God in the present.
He taught me to choose to love those who hate me, to choose to pray for those who hurt me instead of getting even. To choose to forgive instead of holding grudges. No one is perfect, except God himself. I can not make any of these choices without the Lord’s strength. Of course I stumble in my daily life. I’m just a human. And I live in a broken world, but I no longer fall, for God is holding me in the palm of His hand. In fact, the lower I bow before him, the higher He lifts me up.
I’m no longer following empty rituals, but I have a child-like relationship with my God which helps me to follow his light in my daily walk. No more feeling guilty. I’m who I am and I will never depart from the truth. I found the true light and will remain in the light. No other power can separate me from this divine truth.
Nevertheless, I’m weak just like everyone else. God says to me in his word, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that God’s power may rest on me.”(2 Cor 12:9)
I’m no longer standing in the shadow of darkness, behind the window, feeling confused, fearful, and doubtful. Now I’m standing in the shadow of the Almighty.
It’s not about who is right and who is wrong. It’s about who God is.
It’s not about who wins or who loses. It’s about loving one another as he commanded us to do.
He Gave me Wings to Fly
What matters to me now is the Lord my God. He gave me the wings to fly through that window. He welcomed me to live in the spaciousness of His light. I can hardly contain my joy for the peace that is within me. I see His miracles everyday and want to share this joy and peace with the world. I found what I was looking for. My God is no longer compartmentalized in one part of my life. He is involved in every area of my life. He doesn’t want us to live in gray zone. It’s black and white. Either we are with Him or not. We can’t have Him in one area our lives and not in another area, do whatever we want to do. That is leading a double life, being double minded.
The path of knowing God is not easy. But I have hope that the God who invited me into this light will continue to shed light on my path and keep me learning and growing. My heart is filled with gratitude! His work will continue building my character as long as I live.
This is not my story, this is God’s story unfolding in my life. I am simply telling you what He has done in my life.
He unveiled his glorious power and love to me. I pray that He may use my humble life for his purposes and that his blessings will reach other lives around me. I will praise His name forever and ever!!!
Stick around, my testimony will be unfolding!